Lisa Moore

I'm 43 with 2 grown sons. I put all I was into raising them and I'm really proud of the men they've become. I was bought up being told not to expect much out of life because I wouldn't achieve anything. My dreams and aspirations slowly died overtime and I lost myself until I had my sons, noone could ever tell me I was wrong for putting everything into raising them after all. What I didn't allow for was the day They grew and left home, when they no longer needed me or had time for me in their life like before and I become relegated to waiting for a reply to text messages I'd sent days before or if I was lucky a monthly slot for coffee for an hr where as times gone on we no longer know the person sat opposite and we feel more like strangers each time . The stark realisation that I had no job or career, had to leave the family home as could no longer financially afford it for one. Id distanced myself from people I once called friends after realising we had never been more than acquaintances , a time filler to entertain spoilt children rather than a friend of Any substance. The relationship I'd coverted for almost 15yrs had been with a mentally abusive narcissist and had left me with scars so damaging I was afraid to leave my home and certainly had no idea who the person looking back at me in the mirror was anymore.
So I took a risk and sought counselling which broke me more before I could start building myself up again. I learnt harsh truths about the person I was and why and broke further ties with family members this time that once I'd never even allow you to insinuate I ever would but as each harsh event unfolded I was forced to deal with the realisation that I actually felt relief in the action and forcing myself to confront the truth that I'd spent my entire life being told I would fail, wasn't good enough and worse that the life I wanted for myself and the things that made me happy were wrong , the fantasies of childish knowshons and not actually something one pursues with any degree of sincerity!
It's now I'm learning that it's these very ideas that have filled my dreams for nearly half a century that are the very things that will lead me to a path of happiness.
I love creative arts, I love the arts, ballet, woodwork, science, music anything and everything that allows a person to completely, unequivocally fully express themselves in anyway they choose, to be able to stand out in the world and hold themselves bare shouting "this is me!!!" . There's never a wrong way, or a not quite right way, there's no not good enough or not fitted in right way, it's in all of these pursuits and more that anyone can truly find themselves. I want to do everything, try it all infact I'm so eager to consume everything I don't know where to begin.
I'm going to start by creating myself a space to work from to start enabling me to not only learn some basic skills and not have to rely on others to do, basic DIY! It also means creating myself a home something I've not had for a long time. Once this is done can start really putting the real me out into the world!
I've never been driven by money, or flashy cars, clothes holidays etc , I'm an empath and can feel others emotions so all consumingly , I'm driven by the kindness and compassion of others, to see others love and be loved, find true happiness, reach whatever goal they covert to do this. I love hearing people laugh but even more being told they are valued, are loved that their very existence brings sheer joy to another! It's watching the life cycle of nature, appreciating the power of mother nature and living amongst it all in a humble quiet way, consuming only the very basics to survive, giving back that that we consume no more no less and paying forward karma in respect for those that come after us.
My small home will also be my business reveling in a workspace I created to create anything and everything that the mood takes me, using natural clay, materials and supplies from nature! to create new design pieces from these materials that have been around for time, salvaging pieces others are wasting and turning it into something beautiful and young again, expressing myself in every single piece I turn out into the world so when it finds the right someone who sees it, That it calls to and makes them feel right i myself will feel it to and know! Know that I was worth it, that I can do anything, my dreams can be reality and there is a small little place for me I csn carve out in the world where I can create and call home. ❤️