Monika Kuczyńska-Kozerska

I am .. I don’t know how I am. I graduate Landscape Architecture, faculty of Architecture but I used to work as an interior designer. I have always wanted to be a painter.
I feel that, but architectural school was a compromise between art and family expectations.
After finishing that school I have no courage to take the exam in Fine Art School.
During that school period and working timeline I used to draw and paint.

About 10 years ago I started to draw regullary (I was then an graphic designer full time and an illustrator occasionally). That time I reached art workshop improvement in my opinion, but I had to involved in flat purchase process and arrange it, it was my occupation anyway). Professional and private duety stoped art life again.

My longlife paths of forture (or misfortune) led me to this point when I have depression and I can’t even focus on art. I try, read and watch books about art, but can’t feel artistic soul, climate, atmosfere what I used to feel.
I have always belived that painting is my destination and life purpose. Nowadays I don’t belive in anything, I am not storng enough to create, and for the first time in my life I have doubt if I should create (I dont know why, maybe because I rejected creation path, when I was in creative flow)

I dont work nowadays, because I am on crossroad. I dream to be an illustrator if I can and of course painter anyway (an illustrator is a painter in my opinion).