fckoffndyeit

A Jill of all trades, and master of none. That is the best way to describe me.

I have always been a crafter. I make a mean tie-dye that would knock your socks off. I self-learned to knit, I've crocheted since I was 7. I play a little guitar, piano and once upon a time, the clarinet. I once built a radio station that my husband and I ran for a decade purely for the love o f the music we played and for me, the technical skills I acquired in web design, servers, and I met so many cool people all over the world while training them to be disc jockeys. I am learning to sew. I took up painting. I do woodworking, and even dye the wood in my finishing process. Honestly it's easier to tell you what I don't do. Welding. I can't weld but that's on my todo list.

My love of creation and my love of technology recently converged during covid lockdown. Then I was gifted a 3d printer and an entire world opened up to me. I am learning this stuff so quickly because I am absolutely obsessed with it. Having given up all my social media accounts also freed up a lot of my time. With that time, I devour books on engineering and I try to apply what I learn. I literally cannot learn enough to quench this thirst for knowledge.

I learned a lot about myself in quarantine in addition to this. I learned I could draw, for instance. I also learned I was mechanically inclined but I hate working on greasy engines. but the fact is I CAN if I have to. The phrase, "F*** around and find out" has a different meaning for me. It's like a scientific method for me. LOL Hand me a broken item destined for the trash, and I will strip it down and figure out what is wrong with it, repair it if possible and if not strip it all the way down and salvage its parts to repurpose them. In the process, I learn more. I can't help it. Nor do I want to. I have relieved my husband of the plumbing and repair duties around the house and he has taken over the cooking. He's gotten so good at that, we bought a food truck and are set to launch any minute after a year of hell getting all our ducks in a row.

If it is something out of my realm of knowledge, I set it aside and I don't think about it. I just continue on my path and usually what happens is I come across the thing I couldn't figure out somewhere down the road and now I have acquired the know-how to deal with it naturally. Like my sewing machine will finally be getting the treatment it needs and I have two other's I want to restore.

This has been the hardest, most random, and most incredible few years. I also learned I am likely autistic. At the age of 43. This bit of knowledge is the catalyst for all that has come about. Once I was settled in this knowledge and it explained every facet of my past, I no longer fought to stuff mysef in that box of what I was expected to be and the doors began to fly open in my mind. This was such a huge missing piece and to have it filled, the peace I now have is unlike any I have ever known.